Ethan (born 3/21, who refuses to go to war) Perfect until he tried to breathe amniotic fluid, the first time we saw him was in the Polaroid from Intensive Care. His skull like a tremendous opal, glistened with sweat on top of his skinny neck. Silver-blue veins where he took in liquid food were covered by a Dixie cup like a baby party hat, a bad baby joke, with no evidence of what those in the delivery room had witnessed: my brother sputtering for air, his ten fingers folded in prayer, his two hands clasped in the devotion of one fist. |